So here lately things have been getting a little crazy! I've been trying to find out stuff about school and seeing what I can do. Nothing good has really come up yet. I feel like they are all scamming or just trying to get people the information instead of actually helping. Idk its hard to explain. Online stuff like that has always made me uneasy because of how dirty people are today. So I guess I'll keep looking and see what comes along.
Work hasn't been going good at all. I haven't worked alot which means no money other then child support and what I have saved. So budgeting that has really got me stressed here lately for some reason. Going from a family to just me is hard to get used to even though its been almost a year. It's crazy to say that and think what I've over come. This past year has literally drug me through hell and back and now I can say I'm a completely different person. Idk what it is about being a single mom that makes me so empowered, but everytime I think about it I get this proud feeling. Yes I'm lonely and miss the partnership of having someone there. Then at the same time I'm perfectly content with being alone and doing my own thing. It's a bag of mixed emotions. I just don't want to be that mom that has a 15 year old son and still dating. I'd probably be the only single one in my group of friends.
I got Christian a potty and a toddler bed at the J&J consignment sale. The potty my grandmother got randomly without me knowing and it doesn't have the seat or shield. It's basically just the potty and the basin at the bottom. lol So I'm going to get him a brand new one that he can use. When I get him ready for a bath I ask him to sit on the potty and he starts to cry and get upset. So we will be waiting on that for a while. I'm not pushing him and making him not want to go. The toddler bed will be going up tonight and I'm dreading how it will end up. He likes the idea of a bed for himself and even says it "bed", but I dont think he realizes that he will be sleeping in it. Plus he is so squirmy during the night that it makes me nervous he will wiggle himself into the floor. So hopefully this weekend when he gets spongebob bedding he will be more comfortable and it won't go as badly as I'm thinking. We shall see!
