This week I am supposed to start work. I'm really stressing over money and I'm so tired of being stuck at home with nothing to do. The only good thing in my life right now is Christian. It's amazing how one little person can just make all your problems just go away and your just happy. He is growing so fast and learning so much. He has gotten so independent and his personality has officially come through. He is just like me in so many ways and I praise God for that. He is what the glue that holds me together when my world is falling apart and I couldnt be happier with how I am raising him.
It feels like I'm in the slow lane here lately. I'm not in school and work is so slow that I rarely work. I feel like I'm not doing what I should those areas of my life. I've always had a plan to be doing it all and being successful at it. Now it's like that plan has slowly faded and I'm just stuck going through the notions. I want a different job, but finding one these days is few inbetween. I wanted to start school this semester, but I ended up getting sick and missing the dead line for my application. I'm just waiting for a sign to tell me what to look for and where to start. I just hope it's soon because I'm honestly drowning!
Girl you are a great mom! Christian is just precious. You are doing great with him! Try not to let life get you down. Everything will work out in the end.
ReplyDeleteThanks girl. It's just hard sometimes cause I feel like I'm just sluggin along not really doing anything. i want to show Christian that i can do this and be amazing. Hopefully something will come along soon.
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