So I can officially tell its Christmas time. People have gotten rude and stressed. I have Christian's presents in layaway at Walmart. (Which I will never do again!) Kmart was so much easier last year and you can actually put everything in there. Plus Kmart gives you the dates of when your payment is due by every couple of weeks. I like having it planned out instead of just paying whenever. Idk if its me being lazy and having them do the planning for me or what but it was not as stressful as it is now. I got him everything I wanted and I can't wait for him to open them up and start playing. The only thing I didn't get that I'm looking into now is a VTech toy. But its expensive and you still have to buy the software for it. So idk if he will be getting that this year. I'm just glad everything else is taken care of except for my family. I have planned what I'm getting them just haven't gotten it yet.
Things with my life however are a different story. I figured out what I wanted to do for school, but with the holidays I have to figure out if I want to get a second job or start school. With this decision I am completely lost. If I go to school I would just go for a certificate program which is three semesters. I could be done in a year. Also I could get money back from going to school. But with a job I get the same thing just not a better education. I honestly can't decide what I want to do more. I'm completely lost. ugh!!!!!!! I've also decided that I'm going to start buckling down and trying to save money every way possible. I started couponing but kinda drifted away from it. Now I'm going to go crazy about it and see what I can do. I've been going to consignment sales and thrift shops buying our winter clothes and whatever objects we need that I can find. I love buying name brand high dollar clothes for literally a dollar! I'd much rather buy that and just have to wash it then paying full price!
My Stills disease hasn't made things easier either. I went back to the doctor at the beginning of the month and he added yet another medicine. With my Prednizone I now take Methotrexate. He had to add a folic acid pill with this because the Metho can give you mouth irritation. The side effects of this new medicine are really giving me a strain. Considering that its used for chemotherapy patients should say something. The worst side effect is that I'm loosing my hair like crazy! I literally shed like no other. It's not like I don't have the hair to loose, but I gets everywhere. All I have to do is run my fingers through my hair and a chunk comes out. Hopefully I'll be in remission by the time I'll go bald. lol
The love life hasn't been any better either. I have dated some guys, but they all want one thing or are absolutely crazy! I never realized men are so insecure about being alone. I've tried this dating website and those men are all perverts looking for someone to chat about sex. I'm def not into that nor do I have the time. I'm so independent that I'm not looking for money or someone that will take care of me and Christian completely. I just want the companionship and someone to come home to every night and wake up every morning. I'm so tired of fixing people and dating jerks. It's just annoying. I'm satisfied being alone with Christian instead of dealing with a male and their drama. (Which is just as bad as a woman!)
Christian on the other hand is growing and learning more then ever. He's gotten so independent it makes me sad. His new word is "sorry". He says it so pitiful that it just breaks my heart. He's speaking in full sentences and barely lets me help him with anything. He likes to grab my hand and take me to what he wants. Especially when it comes to food. With Halloween being on Monday we still need to practice what to say. He doesn't really understand the whole concept of getting candy and stuff. I just hope he says his country moo when people ask what he is. (He's going to be a cow btw) For some reason he has started his "wanting to be a baby again stage" He likes sitting with me and cuddling more then ever. He has been sleeping with me more then in his own bed and if I put him back he just gets up an hour later and comes in with me. I thought it was because he was cold, so I started turning our heater on. Of course that doesn't change anything. His nose has been running and starting to get congested so I thought that was it and gave him some Benadryl. That wasn't it either. So the mystery still remains.
Even though I have every aspect of my life kinda crazy and stressful right now, I'm never short to remember my blessings this time of year. For some reason the holidays have always made me thankful for what I have compared to others. I wouldn't be anywhere I am today without my family and friends what have stuck by me through the roughest of times. Even little things like running water I am thankful for. I love the holidays for this reason and I can't wait for them to get here! :)
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