Christian turns two years old on Friday :( I'm so sad. We already had his party because we thought I would be coming off of my meds and I could be sick again. It was so cute seeing him get all excited for his party. When we sang happy birthday he just cheered and had a blast. It was a bitter sweet moment to experience. Now this weekend is a different story. Friday is his birthday and then Saturday Josh is wanting to throw a party with his family. It really makes me angry that he won't take off work on Friday night so we could do something as a family, but he will take off work so his family can have a party. Honestly right now him seeing Christian is a rough subject. It has become the type of experience to where I dread every Monday and Tuesday. Sad to say. Between completely bailing or bringing him home early because he can't get him to nap its just too stressful. Just ridiculous.
I'm all for Christian being involved with his dad considering that idk who my real dad is. But when the dad only cares about him those two days and never pulls through for him it really doesnt make him a great figure. Right?? I'm not just imagining things? I want whats best for Christian and a part time dad figure just doesn't cut it in my eyes. I just don't know where to go from here with this situation. I want him around, but not when he can't be a responsible parent and actually take care of him. Thats my dilema right now.
Besides all the baby daddy drama, Christian having his birthday this weekend is really got me excited. I can't wait! :)
Josh will regret that one day. When I was old enough to realize what my dad was doing I never wated to be around my dad. I still have a lot of resentment towards him now that I just can't shake even though he is trying to be a better dad.
ReplyDeleteOn a side note, you should send me some of the pics your mom got at his party of him and Grace. I bet they are adorable!
Well its just the point that he thinks he's doing great and he's not by any means. I just don't understand. I would def send them to you but we lost the cord to her camera. We bought one for it but idk if it works. I'll ask her and I'll play around with it to see if it works. If not I'll get double prints for you :)
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